So I haven't done this thing in a long time. I'm currently working in an operating room at St. Francis Hospital. I love working here and its giving me a lot of knowledge. Working on getting a apartment soon, but I just haven't had time to look at any. I have school from 8 in the morning to 12 then I have to work at 1 and get off at 9:30 p.m. Not much of a life I know, but I'm depressed enough that it fits right in too my life. Relationship wise, I'm still looking, haven't had much success and I have been called ugly a few times so that doesn't help. I'm just trying to do whats right from me, I'm not insane, I'm not mf sticks anymore. I'm just plain old auburn boy sticks. I'm done with being crazy

Haven't written on this in a long time, I got a new job, I'm 21 now, still single haha, I'm just doing what I do, being who I be. Sure wish I could have some luck though, haven't been having the best year. I wish people would take me seriously sometimes, but thats an outcome of my own mistakes. Its just frustrating some times when no one takes you seriously. I figured out resently that I'm not much of a bar kind of guy, but I don't really know of any other way of meeting girls around here so there you go. I'm going to have to change something or else I feel like I'm going to be in the same position and I can't do that anymore.

ryan 

"a diffrent kind of pain, is someone there to hold you, is someone there to take you away from me, its a diffrent kind of pain."

ryan